it gets worse everyday.

I'm sick of only hearing bad news without hearing a solution to fix it. So today we found out that Mark may have a fracture in his spine caused by another tumor and there might be a lesion on his brain. I'm tired of hearing about more problems, when are they going to say "OK, and here's how we're going to stop it."? I don't want him to die. I hate even typing it, but all of this bad stuff just makes me worry more and when I worry I always think worse-case scenario and I'm scared. I'm scared that Sydney won't know her dad and Vanessa will be a widow at 33. And if I'm feeling this way, I can't even imagine what Vanessa and Mark must be feeling right now. I hate that for them. I wish so badly that I could help. I hate that I always have to come back to Tucson. Why did I ever move here?

Hopefully, there will be a treatment plan in place by tomorrow morning. And hopefully, we'll finally hear some good news because right now it's so hard to hold on to that glimmer of hope.